I'm in such a different place than everyone else in my world. Its hard to explain, there aren't words, pictures or anything to really discribe the feelings and thoughts I've been having. Part of the problem is I spend way too much time at home. Don't get me wrong, I love my personal time, personal space and everything that goes along with living alone. But it does get rather lonely. And its pointless to invite people over because it just never seems to work out or becomes more of a hassle then it needs to be.
Its funny, because I've teetered on the thoughts of moving and starting over somewhere else. I know all my friends think I'm nuts and that if I haven't done it by now I won't. Or my reasons are insaine...whatever it is the idea in their mind is that I'm insaine. :) Well I am slightly, but that's another blog in itself. For those of you that might know me, I'm not just talking Colorado. I'm considering anywhere. I seek adventure, fun, excitement, and others that are in the same spot in life as myself. Don't get me wrong I adore my friends and family. But if I actually picked up and moved.....I would still talk to all the people in my life, as much as I talk to them now. Because as it goes, I only see like 2 of my friends on a regualr basis. No one's fault, but that is how it is. Again, we're all in different places in life.
I know that I have way to much time on my hands to think, ponder and wonder where my life is going, where it's been and what will be next. Almost like trying to win a chess game. But I know that I have to do something, and do it soon, because all the thoughts in my head are just collecting, swimming and are stuck in my brain. And I have no one to talk to about it. Then again, I have many people in my life, but I know that deep down they think to themselfs "oh no, here we go again. Same story different players." That's why I'm going to turn my thoughts, feelings, and fears into this blog.
For anyone out there that might feel the same, message me. Lets Chat. :)
